erinathefae

Pre War Stress

2009-03-11T02:20:26Z

I've got my packing and shopping down to an art form. I can prepare with skill to camp with style for a week. But other crap happens right before gulf wars... I'm having to deal with property tax shit... how lame... i want to hurry up and get to war... /sigh

Day after awesomness

2008-10-15T15:45:36Z

I'm in the hotel room trying to be quiet while I pass time on the computer. We're gonna eat luch with Preston in about an hour. Traffic here is crazy- too much of it- especially for a suburb of Birmingham. But there's a World Market and a Whole foods less than an hour away. I'm planning on stopping by both before we head out- the damn smoke alarm keeps going off- there are no batteries in it. And this last time I took it off the wall- and it kept on with the BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP for like two minutes. My head hurts now. Stupid fire alarm stole my happy thoughts of rosemary bread and yummy wines that I generally get at whole foods. Might need some fresh herbs too.

The show last night was awesome. I really like that venue- saw Dresden Dolls here with Kat and Sarah a while back. This time we sat out in the front in the bar while the opening bands played- they sounded bad from wehre we were- but Mindless sounded fine. At least they changed soem things from the last show. I wonder how the plan their randomness.I love them bad. I got Jimmy to sign a piece of paper that had a pic of my birthdya cake on it! Steve? walked aound the audience. Awesomeness.

Mindless!

2008-10-14T14:50:24Z

YAYS! I'm sittin at home in PJ's still- Gonna go see Mindless Self Indulgence tonight with Melissa in Birmingham. Preston is there for training so we get a free hotel room! Awesomeness! Makes me happy. I'm sure we both could use the road trip! I haven't told Petra yet. She saw my huge bag of clothes (No clue what I'm wearing tonight) but she hasn't started pouting. That'll happen when i load the car. I should go throw the frisbee before I go. Yep. Gonna do that now.

mah prix

2008-10-02T22:37:39Z

I've just had a lovely end to a rough year. (This time last year my grandfather passed, my birthday was lame, we bought a house- which costs lots, preston lost his job and this all happened right before the holiday season. And since then we've been paying off a fuck ton of debt, and thus we've been living below our means for the last year. Done bitching) So my birthday was most awesome this year! Had peoples I love there, good times. I got another tattoo around mah birthday! Life gets better. I got a promotions!!! We're pretty settled into the house (Still need to buy/make/do lots of things but that's just part of owning a house). And then the Stratus (my purple car, lovely, comfortable, and paid for) started overheating seriously bad. Turns out to be the water pump. Unfortunately that requires fucking with the timing belt- which is always annoying as hell and/or expensive. So we went back and forth for a few weeks trying to decide if we should fix the ten year old car with 200,000 miles on it, or go look for a new one.Well the fact that it had so many miles weighed with the fact that my afore mentioned promotion brought in a little bit more money that about covered a payment ish. We're gonna fix the stratus and sell it. So we went looking and by chance I spotted a shiney black pontiac grand prix gt 2004 sitting in the lot with no tag- but not "new car" clean. We inquired, test drove and signed by seven o'clock monday evening! I loves it. it vrooms and has a huge back seat- which was my main requirement holding me from getting several previous prospects. So I'm still down for taking my car to concerts YAY!

So any way a friend joked when I told him i was looking at grand prix's that they were lesbian cars (more specifically white ones i believe but that model none the less). well wednesday when I went to get my oil change from the dealership (missed some luxuries by taking it home that night- but I got to drive it :P) the service lady with short curly blonde hair and a large frame with sleeves rolled up on a white button up shirt was very friendly to me, all inquisitive and shit i mean i'd already bought the damn car and she wasn't a saleswoman, asking about my book and how i liked my car and what i traded in and the weather and whatever else came to mind as she escorted me around... it was creepy usually people leave me alone. i mean it was close to closing time even. she made me wait so she could give me her card- and her station was like the opposite end of where we we're standing. so i hope in the future the lesbians that attack me for my car are hot. yep.

Suicidal Buzzards

2008-05-26T18:12:38Z

So we all sucessfully head out early saturday morning. Heading to see Type O in NOLA. Before we get to Brookhaven, having a good time, a freakin buzzard flys IN TO Ruby's windshield.... cracks it up bad on the driver side- like it's just waiting for the right amount of pressure to break. Holy crap. We name him Walter. For some reason he didn't move out of the way and instead dive bombed the car. Jacob saw him bounce behind us- everyone looking forward was giddy with the shock of what just occured.

This renders the car unstable- so we head to the nearest town to seek a windshield replacement guy and car rental store. Well that doesn't work out in Brookhaven or McComb- cause they're all closed for the day. So we get some chick from new orleans to get us. Awesome! At that point I start drinking with Ruby! Hells yeah! Going to see Type O in New Orleans- after being set back. Not gonna keep us from those sexy bitches! Nope.

So we make it on time. After all kinds of unmentionable struggling to get there. There's still a line around the corner! Which meant we didnt miss much. Ruby has bird bladder and goes to a bar across the street with Jacob, Alex and I wait in line. We get up close to the door- but we have their tickets- so we call them to tell them to hurry up! And they reply with "We're talking to Peter Steele". Course we were like "You're full of shit" so they put him on the phone, Alex and I get to talk to him. No fucking shit I talked to Peter mother fucking Steele on the phone! (Squeel!) Then it dawns on us that he's just around the corner- so we book it to the bar in time to get handshakes pictures and exchange words! I was all giddy like a school girl! It rocked- we have pictures for proof!

<Does a little dance: "I got to touch Peter Steele!>

The show was awesome, they're getting old- been playing for 18 years. But they still had an awesome presence! Great hair all around, awesome songs. Purple and green lighting. Peter had a priest's colar kickin... wind blowing his hair... it was great.. .the pit wasn't too crowded- the whole bar was evenly spaced. The show was sold out but no one was really crowding anyone.

Afterwards we went back to the chick that picked us up's house, I slept on the floor... we headed back pretty early the next day... nothing amazing on the way home. So over all (despite the car bills Ruby gained) it was a good trip!

Type O Negative.... YAY!

2008-05-24T15:09:08Z

I'm awake bright and early on a saturday morning for one reason.... well mainly Ruby... but the end goal will be seeing Type O Mutha Fukin Negative in New Orleans tonight- any goth's wet dream! It's been over ten years since I saw them... at my first concert. I hope they're not old. Ruby is motivating us to get movin' by eleven. I guess so we can get smashed in some bar in the quarter before the show- which is fine cause there are two opening bands that I could care less about. Which gives me plenty of time to prepare myself for the sexiness!

Each show I go to reminds me that I'm not sixteen anymore. Though I'm still stubborn enough to shove my way into the pit. I've not yet resigned myself to sitting in the back. I can blame it on bad vision for a couple more years. It's just so much more better up there- seeing the performers in real life, feeling the energy of the crowd. Elbowing punks and establishing the pecking order of the pit. Good times....

Guess I'll go mess around some more... stalling for time. I always get ready too fast. I meant to still be asleep now but I think Peter Steele was calling to me- so I had to get out of bed.

Yay for unblocked internet!

2008-04-21T18:24:33Z

(my pc at work has serious state locked down internet- so I can't even bring up the lj page at work- but muwahahaha I'm subbing for another instructor downstairs who has unrestricted internet on training computers! Freedom!)

Anyway, I'm bruised and battered from seeing Ministry. I started thinking while we were in line (with 9 people and two cars we still made it there early!) that I started seriously going to concerts when I was about sixteen. That's ten years... no wonder I feel old when I'm in the pit... This one was rough. I've seen bigger, badder ones for sure, but I usually don't get so beat up most of the time. Brutal is how I'd describe it and my body would agree. I got knocked down to the floor twice, head butted, elbowed, all kinds of rude unnecessary violence that's the cause for pain. Blake and Kat got pushed forward away from me and saw different bouts of pit activities such as potential fights and someone in a head lock. I love concerts bad. They make daily life more bearable. I'm tired and sore but it's Monday and I'm doing double time (subbing for two people out all week). I gotta clean the damn house when I get home to prepare it for a dinner with the in-laws tomorrow. So no rest for the wicked. Not that I'm seeking sympathy- I went on my own, and could have walked out of the pit had I so desired- but it's more fun when you're in the middle of the action! I'll have to compare how I feel now with how I feel after MSI. I doubt Type O will be hard core- that's more lighters in the air kinda shit(it's been over ten years since last I saw them). But Dethklok- that will be brutal! I'm so excited! So much good stuff coming up. Unfortunately I have like no off time so I gotta build up some hella Comp time at work. Or I'm gonna have some really crappy mornings! There I wrote a book.

Hizzy for me!!!

2007-07-16T13:16:46Z

Yep. Gettin' a nice deal on a 3 bedroom house with 3.5 acres of land, has a tin barn/shed/workshop thing in the back equipped with electricity! The house is older but its too good of a deal to pass up. We'll be in that house by November or December- we hope. See we gotta fix up the house we're in now first. Gotta make it rent-able. And of course this also means packing. Yep... What fun! I'm so looking forward to it. I'm 'onna cry and scream and pull my back out and prolly twist an ankle and cuss and cry some more. But it's gonna get done. And it will be done well before the moving date. I'm in the first stage right now (well maybe second... I'm starting to move out of denial.) throwing shit away. Yep gonna attack random corners/closets/drawers and such little by little till I get my store of boxes up (damn you rain!!!!!) Gonna make three piles: moving, trashing, friends. Cause we're not going to bother with a garage sale (no thank you I dunna want the extra stress) I'm just gonna let friends go through my possibly useful junk and take the rest to goodwill or something.

This is my first not rushed happy move no "hurry up throw your toys in garbage bags I'll pack your clothes let's go" kinda moving... no this time I get to carefully pack my toys in sturdy boxes!!! EEEE!!! It'll be fun going through my toys again... I got so many in the attic, all my action figures... might designate some to come back out and sit on my shelves in the room that will be my sewing room!!! An' I get to decorate!!! Start from scratch!!! What fun!!! K... time for work.

Update: Had my first bout of tummy stress- not a panic attack per say but during lunch my tummy got not happy- not girlie ouchies, not stomach unhappiness just general tummy not happiness and I was burning up and couldn't think real straight. So I threw out half my lunch and left the room I was in. I'm better now... But I'm totally gonna have to figure out how to manage thoughts in my head. Work's getting crazy busy right now... more so than ever. All the stuff I've been waiting to get started on is happening now... when we're facing moving... Some days I wanna go back to being a college student... gimme a ten page paper I can handle that.

continues....

2007-06-26T13:45:59Z

Ok so more ickiness... that has left me as I am now. Tired and drained. So After returning home I went to work Tuesday and Wednesday- no biggie... just work. Busy, very busy as my responsibilities are increasing. Bust anyway I goes home on Wednesday, feeling cruddy- yay for icky noses- and get some not too happy calls. One friend wanted to come over for the night to talk about stuff I won't divulge here cause it's none ya. Then I got a call from my mom telling me that my papaw was having some SERIOUS heart problems and might not make it long. So insert crying here. He's not a close papaw, I don't know him at all since I dont hunt, golf and didn't marry a hunter/golfer type. But he's always taken care of my mom and has done his obligitory check ups to make sure I'm an ok human being and not seriously in need of anything. So I feel sad at his possible passing.
Next day: Dresden dolls, trip to Atlanta! I feel drained but as Ruby and I were the only ones with sleep we took over the driving (Ruby more than I). So we make really good time for a car full of five girls... but we made a fatal error- damn you time change. We didn't calculate time change so despite the fact that we were early our time... we were behind atlanta time... which wouldn't have been an issue cept that it took an hour to get from the off ramp to the parking area and as such we missed the dresden dolls... drove 7 freakin hours to miss them. I saw them... passed by them. Stood less that five feet away. They do exist. And they're precious! But I have no clue what they sound like. So I proceeded to get smashed! Yep we killed a few bottles of wine. So by the time Cyndi Lauper came on I was good and ready for her. And I'm happy to say that my inner six year old was quite pleased after finally seeing Cyndi. It was a fun trip despite missing the band we were going to see. We got a cheap hotel room, attacked a waffle house, watched a car shoot flames and be extinguished by a waffle house employee, visited an awesome organiky grocery store, ate some yummy lunch, stopped at dirt cheap/hudsons and bought stuff, then came home! Yay home. I was sick the whole time... am still sick. I can't think of what we did this weekend. oh! yeah... went to da club saturday night... heh. Forgot. But now I've got a hella busy work week and I'd really like to take a nap. Just lots of stuff all at once... in a short amount of time. I feel drained. Oh! And my car is possibly dying. Yep... we got an oil change the other day and was informed that our belt thingy needs changing and that our oil was low. It's not liking shifting some of the lower gears... will deal with that when I have to. Now waiting for four this afternoon so I can call and check on my papaw. /sigh.

Lots of words huh...

craziness....

2007-06-25T20:54:59Z

Well it usually takes a good bit to make me even think of updating journals... so here goes an update... after the emotions have faded and the excitement gone...

Well last weekend I visited my mom in VA. That was awesome, a little tiring, but fun. A great visit, full of shopping, talking, a manicure/pedicure, and good eating. The trip home sucked ass. I was all crying and sniffly from leaving my mom. So there I was crying in the big ol' airport, having to find people that spoke English to get me to the right line (yep there were two lines full of people who can't speak English, none clearly marked as such...) I had to check a bag (due to previously mentioned shopping). So gathering the rest of my crap I head to security... Trip over a lady's luggage, drop all my stuff, including ID, still crying I pick it all up, don't care who's looking. I'm snifflin' all the way to security check in... where I get pulled aside cause I put my lotion that I just bought in the wrong bag (forgot to put in in checked luggage) Well that ordeal- meaning finding the bottle of pumpkin pie lotion at the bottom of my snuggly packed back pack- took a good fifteen minutes. Waiting for the right personnel to arrive with the right type of gloves, and badges and such while the xray chick was all "um hmm saw a bottle in that bag I did" and two guys were all "I dunno if I'm authorized...blah blah blah" So still crying and now shoeless, I get to meet the correct guy, he finally finds the damn lotion and asks me what to do with it (20 minutes before my flight leaves he has the nerve to ask a crying girl if she wants to locate her check on luggage to keep one bottle of lotion, I wouldn't know where to begin finding the location of a bag en-route to a plane...) I glare and him and tell him to just throw the shit away... no nicieties... nope, I'm positive I used wordy durds... Thankfully the flight home wasn't bad... I'm glad I got to see my mom! I miss her bad. ....More stuff happened but I can leave work now so I am.... will update on the rest of the ordeals leading up to today at a later time... yep... goin home...

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2007-03-30T19:28:19Z

Haven't written anything in a while cause there's nothing to write about... hum drum daily life... blah blah blah... and unfortunately I have nothing amazing now either. Random updatiness: I'm settled at work, I'm getting mad skillz wit the keyboard, even when I'm not at work I use my shortcut keys a LOT... it's kinda nice... forget you mouse! Preston and I have been walking Petra here lately...I'm really liking it. (Though I skip out half the time) Petra's loving it, 'cept yesterday she got too hot and had to sit down. It's hard to remember she's not a spring chicken...Think we're gonna start walking her after the sun starts setting so we don't wear her out. I love my puppy!! Got a party this weekend YAY. Haven't had a party in a while... weekends have been sorta dull, just the regulars stopping by which is fine I should prolly slow down some weeks... if our visitors trickle down to nothing I'll be sad. I'm used to high trafficking in my house. I'm always prepared for it!! Yay friends!!!

Waiting for 20 minutes to pass so I can go to a meeting and then go home...

It's kinda scary... I didn't want to admit it but now I'm like a teacher or something. Happened while I wasn't looking... fought kicking and screaming all the way. And I'm still not sure if I like the idea... Gotta start studying for my GRE- gotta get my Masters!!! Hopefully before I'm 30!

A week of craziness begins

2006-11-13T21:08:26Z

Work thankfully will be sorta slow...not too bad. But after work... I gots to get motivated... Gotta get all kinds of small things ready for an SCA event this weekend...I want to sew a dress (might happen- I went so far as to cut the pattern out at work today and am heading to Hancocks after work to see if some bolt of fabric yells at me "Hey you!! Yes you!! Make me into a dress!!!") I'll get it all done as long as I don't procrastinate too much... I wanna be extra prepared so when this weekend comes and it's freaking cold I'll have everything ready to keep us warm and comfy... Yep... have to get things out of my head... now I can work for the last hour till the bell rings... And I'm free!!!

/sigh

2006-11-10T19:08:49Z

Damn you Marilyn Manson for making me feel old... (I'm listing to Lunch Box- at work... and started thinking about who/what/where I was when I was listening to it.../sigh)

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2006-11-02T21:19:16Z

If you want to destroy my sweater... pull this thread as I walk away... Watch me unravel I'll soon be naked! Lying on the floor I've come undone...

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2006-10-31T13:46:05Z

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!

Mondays

2006-10-30T19:35:02Z

Yep that's it... it only took a month to fiure out that Monday afternoons are just a little bit worse than the anticipation of Friday afternoons... I'm so tired of writing out plans... been doing it for two hours. Now it's after lunch and I can't get motivated... So now i'm gonna be miserable for two and a half hours... bitch bitch bitch...I'm really happy! Yep I am. And in a few hours I'll go pick up Preston and the day will be great. And I'll go to my chaotic home and clean for a bit then be lazy for the rest of the evening (don't think I have anything planned for tonight) And have sweet dreams about pumpkins and witches and black cats, and maybe a few old friends...

Le sigh

2006-10-27T19:48:58Z

Damn you hour and twenty minutes!!! Damn you for keeping me from gettin my costume done!!! Damn you absolute boredom and lack of motivation to write papers in the last hour on a friday!! So ready to escape this lonely, desolate office... the clients got to go home... I should be able to too!!! I'm just wishing I had time for a nap... which I won't... /sigh I'd fall asleep here but soon as I did, someone would actually call me...

erinathefae @ 2006-10-26T08:00:00

2006-10-26T13:08:12Z

I got the little wire-y-ness of excitement mixed in with the "oh shit will I be able to finish?"... I got my pigtails done yesterday (didn't make dreads- just braided and tied off pieces of blue white and black hair). I still have my halo to make!!! I'm hoping to magically get that done tonight before we go to Fenians... if not I'll finish it tomorrow before we go to the party. Though I still have no clue what I'm wearing... Took care of the accessories... now I have to come up with something black (that doesn't have red or purple in it- that's the hard part) Wish I had more time... Wish I wasn't all bummed out earlier this week... But it's too late for that now, and I'm not gonna skip fenians to make a thrown together outfit... I think I'm just trying not to wear my corset again... Cause I'll want to take it off... so um yeah... plan B hasn't been discovered yet. Guess I'll figure that out at some point (fifteen minutes before we leave) I love halloween!!!!

I finally had a day where I was looking forward to (and hoping that I actually had) the last hour with nothing to do!!! Work's picking way up- I wore myself out... working... how odd... thought I was a bum, guess I"m wrong.

I love hallween so bad!

2006-10-25T13:18:30Z

I realized this morning that if I don't get out of my little funk I won't enjoy halloween!! And I have so much preperations left on my costume!! YAY!!! Fun stuff!!!! Gotta get a lot done today!!! I'm getting excited- I have two parties to go to!!!! So i get to dress up twice!!! OMG Rock!!!!

erinathefae @ 2006-10-23T13:17:00

2006-10-23T18:31:04Z

This morning started out rough... When I got here I was ready to have a breakdown (I think I'm lying to myself about being stressed.) Unfortunatly stressed or not I have to make my newly changed life work. And I'm not willing to put things like a social life to the side, so I guess I'll just have to suffer a bit till I get it all straightened out. I have to finish my costume for a halloween party this weekend. I think for the first time ever I'm not going to have a pumpkin... cause adding a pumpkin to "have to do's" will make it a rushed project that lacks the enjoyment it's supposed to bring me. Which makes me kinda sad, but dwelling on it won't make it better, it's just a damn pumpkin... I doubt I'll do an xmas tree this year either... we'll see... maybe something majikl will happen in the next month and "poof" I'll have better management of my time and life.

I'm just tired or something... I dunno. This sucks.. I don't like being in a funk... I don't like my house being funky... and I don't like bitching... really. I don't....

erinathefae @ 2006-10-20T13:39:00

2006-10-20T18:47:50Z

So glad it's friday.... I'm waiting... watching the minutes creep by... I got two hours left... and I don't know what I can do... I'll be pulling out my hair in a bit... then it'll all be over and I'll be home!!! But until then... I'll contemplate something... I should really bring a sketch book up here... wish I had brought my blue hair... I coulda finished it sitting here... I complain too much... bitches I gots a job... And it's friday.... and and... yeah... halloweens almost here!!!

I'm gonna snap one of these days! just POOF... SNAP... and then I'ma kill someone. Yep... or not... that would be bad... "hush hush.. shhh no I won't kill you." hehe

YAY

2006-10-18T16:19:32Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEATHER!!!!!!!

LEMME KNOW IF YOU WANNA DO ANYTHING TONIGHT!!!

YAY

2006-10-18T16:17:03Z

LJ works at work... despite the hella restrictive lock down on the network... I guess since "blogs" are not political outlets they're not banned...

Well I've been at my job for a month now, and it's finally picking up... And I'm finally finding my place. My office (despite being big) happens to be on the top floor off by itself. So when I want to hide I can. Which means I can listen to music and run around bare foot! I'll start having classes and clients soon, I'm in the prep stage now coming up with my "curriculum" a little bit each day (while listening to Beastie Boys).

Life's crazy. I'd say it's busy but I don't know with what. Just lots of social happenins I guess... I dunno. And somewhere along the way I lost my Celeste... I need to go find her. I've been trying to put up Halloween decorations and get the living room and kitchen in order (strike that, reverse it) but haven't managed to do that yet... stuff keeps coming up. Oh well, I'll have it decorated some time before Halloween I'm sure... I need to start working on my dread falls for my costume too!!! I hope it works out well. I got lots of extra hair for when I screw half of it up!!!

I'm sleepy. My body and mind are not used to this damn six o'clock in the morning routine yet... still rebelling, so I'm taking in a lot of Caffine... which I'll need to work on soon. I don't want to depend on it, but damn being motivated, awake and looking professional in the morning is rough...

Update

2006-09-22T01:00:44Z

I've been at my job for a little over a week now... I like it a lot. I haven't started my actual job- I'm still in trainng, but i'll prolly start giving Vocationals Training classes by mid October. I'm also teaching Advanced Communications, (Typing and Use of various programs to help visually impaired or blind persons use computers) Yep I got a big ol' office!! Two windows!!!

On a really sad note earlier this week Chewy, one of my piggies died. I was quite sad...I think I underfed them... I dunno, but I hope I dont end up overfeeding Nibbler to make up for it... not that I could... Chewy's now got a place in the backyard next to Tumbles. I'll start getting nightmares of Pet Semetary from Tumbles for putting a guinea pig near her....How dare I put a little piggy in her back yard? ... wow I'm a special chicken...

Yep other than the loss of my beloved piggy life's good...

Happy happy joy joy!!

2006-08-30T16:55:52Z

Goin up to Addie Mcbryde- place I've been trying to get a job at for like a year, to fill out paper work to put me through to get a job teaching clients to use computers in order to advance their job gettin skillz!!! I'm gonna teach blind people to use computers!!! Oh yeah!!! Happy birthday to me!!!!